Well, what can I say. Since the last time I wrote I have been blessed immensely. I go through these moments where I question my move. I wonder if I did the right thing. God hears my prayers because he reassures me I am where I am supposed to be. We still have some growing to do because things are new and we are feeling our way around but we are getting used to our new life.
That's my blessing.
In February, I was given the opportunity to participate in the 21 Days of Forgiveness. Iyanla Vanzant wrote a book that allows you to concentrate on forgiving people and the thoughts you held about them. This included parents, children, exes and friends. I thought about some of the hardest times in my past and I was able to say, I forgive myself for believing this, I forgive myself for judging that and I forgive myself for thinking whatever. I was able to forgive my body, my job and the world. It was the most liberating days of the year for me.
Currently, I am supposed to be writing 3 forgiveness letters to anyone. I haven't decided who two of them will go to but one will be to my-teenage-self. I think back on the wrong decisions I made in high school and then in college and sometimes I hold my mind hostage thinking about what I could have and should have done. Well, its time for me to let go. I cannot change my past and I should be grateful for those bad decisions because they have helped form who I am today.
That's my more blessing.
Peace.
Faith
I will be the first to admit over the last six months, my life has been, for lack of a better word, different. I am a creature of habit and any diversion makes me nervous. Well, I pretty much did it to myself and I acted strictly on FAITH.
The company I have been a part of for close to 15 years decided they needed a change as well. This is nothing new in our industry but in the course of those changes I was the one who was, as my former manager so eloquently put it, "left without a chair when the music stopped." Funny thing about that analogy. I was probably doing a happy dance standing there watching everyone get comfortable in their seats.
I took that as my sign. A sign to see what else lies ahead. I had a five year goal and if you read my blog that was published October 5, 2008, I mentioned making plans for my life outside of Chattanooga. Wow! God must have read that blog as well because on October 1, 2013, I found myself in the state of Texas. No home, no job, barely any money but a TRUCKLOAD OF FAITH. That's all I could depend on everyday. It got me through when I questioned my decision. I sometimes forget about FAITH and every time I do, I will get these postings from Joel Olsteen on my Facebook page and he would remind me of FAITH. Joel had this artwork that said, "FAITH is about trusting God even when you don't understand His plan." Everyday, I continue to live by FAITH and within a month I had a job and by month 2 we had a place to live and month 3, my husband had a job.
Now, don't get me wrong, some days are better than others. We haven't fully furnished our home, we are not making what we used to and there are still challenges in getting used to a new environment but I am confident each day is better than the day before. Setbacks are just a set-up for something better. Each day I renew my faith that I made the right decision.
I am going to start something new and see what happens. Each night I am going to reflect on what is good in my life and not dwell on what is not so good. My children are doing well, Alex and I doing well, I love my job and the people are great. Every day is a new day with a new adventure. Thank God for that.
Peace.
The company I have been a part of for close to 15 years decided they needed a change as well. This is nothing new in our industry but in the course of those changes I was the one who was, as my former manager so eloquently put it, "left without a chair when the music stopped." Funny thing about that analogy. I was probably doing a happy dance standing there watching everyone get comfortable in their seats.
I took that as my sign. A sign to see what else lies ahead. I had a five year goal and if you read my blog that was published October 5, 2008, I mentioned making plans for my life outside of Chattanooga. Wow! God must have read that blog as well because on October 1, 2013, I found myself in the state of Texas. No home, no job, barely any money but a TRUCKLOAD OF FAITH. That's all I could depend on everyday. It got me through when I questioned my decision. I sometimes forget about FAITH and every time I do, I will get these postings from Joel Olsteen on my Facebook page and he would remind me of FAITH. Joel had this artwork that said, "FAITH is about trusting God even when you don't understand His plan." Everyday, I continue to live by FAITH and within a month I had a job and by month 2 we had a place to live and month 3, my husband had a job.
Now, don't get me wrong, some days are better than others. We haven't fully furnished our home, we are not making what we used to and there are still challenges in getting used to a new environment but I am confident each day is better than the day before. Setbacks are just a set-up for something better. Each day I renew my faith that I made the right decision.
I am going to start something new and see what happens. Each night I am going to reflect on what is good in my life and not dwell on what is not so good. My children are doing well, Alex and I doing well, I love my job and the people are great. Every day is a new day with a new adventure. Thank God for that.
Peace.
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