Happy New Year

Happy New Year.
Wow, its hard to believe that another year has come and gone but yes we are entering another decade. I just want to take this time to say, I had mixed emotions about leaving 2009. I felt so blessed this past year that I just did not want it to end. To those of you who felt this was a trying year with jobs, homes and personal losses, I am truly sorry. I was sitting in church Thursday listening to testimonies of how people have been blessed even in this turbulent times and at first I was thinking, "I cannot relate because this has not been like this for me." But as I truly reflected on my year, I can say that I had some trying times but I think a prayer I said a couple of years ago really was delivered in 2009.

When I was first divorced it seemed as if the pain would never end and I used to pray for peace. I did not want money, material things or anything physical, I just wanted peace. God gave me peace and this year I was able to apply that peace when things got bad. I was able to press forward and hold on to my faith because I had peace. There was a moment in the year when I really was at the edge with a situation with my daughter. I hurt because she hurt and I thought, she is such a good girl why is her world so upside down right now. I was able to help her because of the peace that I prayed for and together as a family we go through the rough times.

Sunday, I was in church and the preacher talked about this. He said people mistake peace for the absence of trouble but peace is the ability to go through the trouble. There were other times that my patience was tried but I press forward and things got better.

If I could say that I want a New Year's resolution, it would be to keep pressing forward even when times are tough. I want my faith in God, my family and my loved ones to grow.